The biggest fight ever is often between oneself. I just made that quote up. LOL, but feel free to use it, make use your use my name or at least my moniker. ummm hmmm. Thanks!
I was talking with a "friend" about how I have two totally different aspects to my personality. There is rule follower me and wild me. Now rule follower me, that is the daughter to a police officer and granddaughter to a Reverend. She loves order, loves schedules, loves expectations. She does well when there are rules to follow as long as the rules makes sense. She loves playing in the lines, and hates seeing others who don't follow rules because that what makes sense and keeps the world running orderly. She sees the world going to hell in a handbag and cringes when she hears people talking about how they got one over or someone or something else. This girl exceeds expectations, loves doing the right thing, finds it easy to follow what her parents, co-workers, bosses, and even friends think she should be. She wants to be respected and would use that to end a relationship. She loves picking the hardest things to do, doing things for people who expect nothing, and being the overall leader and caregiver. This is the me who directs my life...graduate school, marriage, and baby before 30.
Now wild me? That is a completely different story. She is more hippie, more non-conformist, more go-with-the flow, more sexual. She's more of a "You don't put Baby in a corner." She is fearless, loves jerks and arrogance, doesn't like to be constricted not even in her clothing (she only wears dresses). She openly flows between the rules that the rule follower puts on her and is often the one who doesn't feel guilty one dang bit about her actions. Let the rule follower worry. I think wild me curses and is the more passionate one. The one who can't keep her mouth shut, who tells off people who are wrong. She was very strongly present in my early 20s but now she often has to take a backseat to rule follower. She makes friends easier because they appreciate the aura that she represents. And she comes out every year when spring time hits...here's to seeing her soon.
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