Day 349: True Life: I am a food hoarder

Have you ever seen that show "True Life"? You know where someone gets to reveal a secret that no one knows. Well if I ever went on that show, I would reveal I  hoard food. Not in ridiculously, house hoarders portions were I can't even sleep on my bed due to stacks and stacks of can goods, but just enough for people to know that I probably have something if they need something to eat.  Women that live in shelters do the same thing because they become preoccupied about "where their next meal is coming from?" Well, that was not me, so when did this start? I can't even remember, psychology tells me that this stems from a time in my life where I didn't have enough to eat so now I spend time overcompensating. I don't think that time every happened. I do remember one time I was hungry when we were on the road and my parents told me to wait, but I was so hungry that I wore them down with my complaints so they bought me food. I was always a very picky eater, so many time when they would say eat this or nothing. I would choose nothing and then sneak something that I would eat. So maybe I kept that stuff in my room??

I also remember every time I was hungry, my grandma had a little something in her purse in ziploc baggies whether it was peanut butter and crackers, or mints, or cookies. I used to think how organized that is you know in an emergency. The first time I really remember hoarding was in college. I had a container under my bed that you were supposed to be shoes in that was completely filled with snacks. Sometimes snacks that I didn't even like to eat, I just wanted to be prepared. (Pretty sure I would have gone far in the movie "Eli").

My sister makes fun of me when she looks in my purse. I always have an apple or an orange or some crumbs from some snack that I just sat on top. Whenever I go on trips since I generally don't eat fast food, I usually have a bag packed chocked full of things I like to eat and things my bf likes to eat when he is traveling with me. Just recently, when traveling with him, his cousin commented on the amount of food we had in my car. But please believe me, we ate it all! In 2 days, we could eat 8 apples between us.

I think using the word hoard is a way of saying psychological problem, so I'll just say I like to have food in case I need it. AND I share.  :)

 This my drawer I lock up my laptop....Is this a problem?