Hi Loves and Supporters,
or maybe it's just me out here...Mic check one, two. By giving up facebook and not posting on a regular basis, I'm sure I have seemingly gave up my audience.....THEY'LL BE BACK!*
Spring Break was a wonderful time for me a chance to have a real snow day (by accident 18 inches), a long never ending lie that I used to get a date, and of course the opportunity to see exactly what I am missing out on by not living in the Washington DC area. (thank you always a pleasure).
I read a lot (I know that's an always) and recent found the beautiful writing of Nella Larsen, a writer during the Harlem Renaissance, drove to depression by a divorce, negative reviews a book, and finally the accusation that she committed plagary. That many blows whewww could damage anybody. Her great stories, Passing and Quicksand, were about a strong multifaceted non-tragic, enlightened mulatto girl, which many believed were a reference to her and her life. The young woman's perception about life, race, and others, is still pertinent to today's society. I felt myself outright agreeing with some of the things she was saying. My, to transcend decades! A century! I encourage you to try and read.
I also stumbled across 30 Black Bloggers you should know, everyone knows the one talking about everyday media and gossip, but some of these are deep, some are relationships, and some I'm glad to add to my favorites column. Find out more here...http://www.theroot.com/multimedia/28-black-bloggers-you-should-know
Now back to my Spring Break....I will not hesitate to say for one minute, I have been spoiled and never had to have patience. In a land of intelligent, sophisticated people and go-go-go nature, we could all afford to blanket ourselves with smart, quick thinking people. I do not have the luxury at this moment. I am taking a lot of time to learn about family, usually I would breeze in to visit my family for a weekend, sleep a lot and catch up on TV I hadn't seen in months. Not so anymore, I live with family and this family is not go-go-go, it's more stop.... And the ambition I took for granted, the many projects, long work hours, motivated by motivation....is gone. The appreciation I never had for my last roommate is manifested everytime, I wake up at 8 am and find...no, I am not alone...no I am not the last to wake up, motivation grinds to halt....Quiet moving replaces all the craziness that I had planned. And yet, complaints abound, can you keep it down, I'm still sleeping. WAHT! (spelled that way on purpose). But yet family holds a loyalty I don't possess, a reality that you will keep all promises you made, even to your detriment. I could not imagine. Also there is happiness and balance in simplicity, and though I make attempts (many, many MANY, attempts) I don't feel it or see it. For me, happiness, satisfaction and balance only exists in complexity, staying out too late, not sleeping, going somewhere you haven't been, with someone you haven't been out with, juggling a busy schedule, creating your own events, trying to be three places at once, trying to babysit two active children, making your life worth living.
Now this comes full circle to men, be careful to ask and you shall receive. I had the luxury to my pick of attractive men, places to go to pick up a little flirtation, and man with a graduate degree in one hand and a credit card in the other....but I wanted more...no secrets...the realness...down for me...relationship oriented...more country. And what I got is....this place is small I'm starting to meet people twice, not seeing many Black men, not seeing many attractive Black men, not seeing many attractive men, hearing the real truth (i ain't got no money, I have three children) and learning the men here are relationship oriented so much so that they went ahead and did it at 25, so they are involved, but thanks for the flirt. WOW. And the women must be waiting for them to grow up, because these men aren't all that special, I went out with 2 in DC that blew the water out of these guys.
Just keep swimming, I can't judge until I meet errrbody. :) Keeping my head up....
*I hope....
or maybe it's just me out here...Mic check one, two. By giving up facebook and not posting on a regular basis, I'm sure I have seemingly gave up my audience.....THEY'LL BE BACK!*
Spring Break was a wonderful time for me a chance to have a real snow day (by accident 18 inches), a long never ending lie that I used to get a date, and of course the opportunity to see exactly what I am missing out on by not living in the Washington DC area. (thank you always a pleasure).
I read a lot (I know that's an always) and recent found the beautiful writing of Nella Larsen, a writer during the Harlem Renaissance, drove to depression by a divorce, negative reviews a book, and finally the accusation that she committed plagary. That many blows whewww could damage anybody. Her great stories, Passing and Quicksand, were about a strong multifaceted non-tragic, enlightened mulatto girl, which many believed were a reference to her and her life. The young woman's perception about life, race, and others, is still pertinent to today's society. I felt myself outright agreeing with some of the things she was saying. My, to transcend decades! A century! I encourage you to try and read.
I also stumbled across 30 Black Bloggers you should know, everyone knows the one talking about everyday media and gossip, but some of these are deep, some are relationships, and some I'm glad to add to my favorites column. Find out more here...http://www.theroot.com/multimedia/28-black-bloggers-you-should-know
Now back to my Spring Break....I will not hesitate to say for one minute, I have been spoiled and never had to have patience. In a land of intelligent, sophisticated people and go-go-go nature, we could all afford to blanket ourselves with smart, quick thinking people. I do not have the luxury at this moment. I am taking a lot of time to learn about family, usually I would breeze in to visit my family for a weekend, sleep a lot and catch up on TV I hadn't seen in months. Not so anymore, I live with family and this family is not go-go-go, it's more stop.... And the ambition I took for granted, the many projects, long work hours, motivated by motivation....is gone. The appreciation I never had for my last roommate is manifested everytime, I wake up at 8 am and find...no, I am not alone...no I am not the last to wake up, motivation grinds to halt....Quiet moving replaces all the craziness that I had planned. And yet, complaints abound, can you keep it down, I'm still sleeping. WAHT! (spelled that way on purpose). But yet family holds a loyalty I don't possess, a reality that you will keep all promises you made, even to your detriment. I could not imagine. Also there is happiness and balance in simplicity, and though I make attempts (many, many MANY, attempts) I don't feel it or see it. For me, happiness, satisfaction and balance only exists in complexity, staying out too late, not sleeping, going somewhere you haven't been, with someone you haven't been out with, juggling a busy schedule, creating your own events, trying to be three places at once, trying to babysit two active children, making your life worth living.
Now this comes full circle to men, be careful to ask and you shall receive. I had the luxury to my pick of attractive men, places to go to pick up a little flirtation, and man with a graduate degree in one hand and a credit card in the other....but I wanted more...no secrets...the realness...down for me...relationship oriented...more country. And what I got is....this place is small I'm starting to meet people twice, not seeing many Black men, not seeing many attractive Black men, not seeing many attractive men, hearing the real truth (i ain't got no money, I have three children) and learning the men here are relationship oriented so much so that they went ahead and did it at 25, so they are involved, but thanks for the flirt. WOW. And the women must be waiting for them to grow up, because these men aren't all that special, I went out with 2 in DC that blew the water out of these guys.
Just keep swimming, I can't judge until I meet errrbody. :) Keeping my head up....
*I hope....
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