Girl Lisa jumps up from her bed, sweat on her brow, face twisted up with a bad memory. It had happened again, the nightmare where someone has hurt her and though she never can remember what happened, she always knows where she goes to feel protected. Like in real life, there has always been one man (aside from her father) that could take care of her and truly protect her.
But she had made a choice and now he was gone. She was left to reflect on whether she had made the right decision. Back then she had choices, men throwing themselves at her, the one who always stood beside her, she now felt that she had outgrown. He would always be there, but the new guy, now that was her future.
And she had loved them both. "How silly and immature" she thought now, but would she make the same decision now? Right after some of their best times together, she told him, that she had met someone else. She had begged him all summer to visit her to try something, to be adventurous and spontaneous, but he had declined. Perhaps too shy, too country. He wanted things to stay like it was. He always said, " I'll always be here and you can always visit."
The dream is always the same. Girl Lisa has a duffle bag in her hand and tears in her eyes. She knocks on the door and it is raining in the background. He opens the door, sees her face and opens his arms wide for her to step in and embrace her. He holds her so tight she knows he wil make everything better. He always did. He was always there for her during the relationship. It was her that broke up with him and hurt his heart with no explanation. Just...she had found someone that was a better fit for her.
So now when she looks for him to put her broken pieces back together. He is gone. He's not there anymore and he has someone else to protect and love.
Girl Lisa is left standing in the rain.
But she had made a choice and now he was gone. She was left to reflect on whether she had made the right decision. Back then she had choices, men throwing themselves at her, the one who always stood beside her, she now felt that she had outgrown. He would always be there, but the new guy, now that was her future.
And she had loved them both. "How silly and immature" she thought now, but would she make the same decision now? Right after some of their best times together, she told him, that she had met someone else. She had begged him all summer to visit her to try something, to be adventurous and spontaneous, but he had declined. Perhaps too shy, too country. He wanted things to stay like it was. He always said, " I'll always be here and you can always visit."
The dream is always the same. Girl Lisa has a duffle bag in her hand and tears in her eyes. She knocks on the door and it is raining in the background. He opens the door, sees her face and opens his arms wide for her to step in and embrace her. He holds her so tight she knows he wil make everything better. He always did. He was always there for her during the relationship. It was her that broke up with him and hurt his heart with no explanation. Just...she had found someone that was a better fit for her.
So now when she looks for him to put her broken pieces back together. He is gone. He's not there anymore and he has someone else to protect and love.
Girl Lisa is left standing in the rain.
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