Can I tell you something? I feel so good inside. I have had the most amazing opportunity something that maybe I didn't realize before, but I have met some really great true people, true friends. And it helped me realized how many fake friends I have been holding onto, giving my time, and space, wasting all my light on them. They could careless about me, sadly it was only when they were available, when I could offer them something, when I was paying or cooking, but you know what, I'm over it. I'd like to call and yell at each of them, how dare they waste my time, hurt my feelings, and such, (nope I'd still like to), but why waste any more energy on them. I have three/four people in my life, that every time I am around them I am filled with love, have a great time doing nothing, and don't have to impress anybody, pay for anybody, listen to their stories, offer them my body, and they still want to hang out with me! F the Boos, F the fake friends asking me to do something for them, I feel a change, and though for me, I sometimes feel so lonely, I take that fake pettiness. So through playing games.
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