It goes without saying that it has been a very long time since I posted. I randomly appeared with a Summer Book List in 2017 after not posting a word since early 2014. I had a lot of plans in early 2014, a lot. I had just finished graduate school and was filled with a lot of optimism on what my future would be now that I had this success under my belt. I don't know if you notice but I'm not easy on myself and I am not easy on others, so this isn't a maybe. My future was a "will definitely happen".
So what really happened?
In May 2014, I moved back to Alexandria for an internship that could turn into a job. It was honestly one of the best summers of my life. It was like moving somewhere completely new but all your friends are there. I went out almost everyday. I dated a lot and reconnected a bunch with old flames.* I met this younger guy and I was totally smitten. I got a job at a young and popular organization and began the exhausting time of trying to be young and popular. All of the people that I knew at the time were around 25 or 26, I was 28/29. My "boss" was a year behind me in school and would cry during one-on-ones with others and I would have to comfort him in my meetings. That lasted less than a year and God blessed me to slide out of that job and into my current job, which I have been doing for 2.5 years. This is the longest I've ever worked somewhere.
In August, I moved from my summer place to a place in Old Town that was amazing! I lived there for over 2 years (the longest I have ever lived somewhere) until ultimately purchasing my own place this January.
Younger guy and I had so much fun, but I forgot young people aren't about anything serious ever, ever, ever. And worse with these millennials. He disappeared, reappeared, got a job at my organization, screwed it up and disappeared again. Good.
I have been dating a man for 1.5 years (again the longest I have ever consistently dated someone). That will be a story entirely of it's own.
What I have found is in the last 3 years while I was waiting for all the things to come to fruition, I have settled more, understood more, grew up more and those actions saw a relationship that could lead to something more settled, bought a house so I could be more settled, held down a stable job so I could be more settled.
I'm not saying that I have lost my crazy streak, not at all. In fact in a way the settling will cause it to fire up stronger than ever, but I would love to know what "her" -( i.e. 2014 version of me) judgements of me would be today.
It was the plan to do these things, but I didn't realize how much your mentality needs to change to be able to move forward in stable life plans.
*FYI Boo was engaged at the time I think and/or out of the country. He is currently neither of those things. The One was married at the time and/or out of the country. He is currently neither of those things.
So what really happened?
In May 2014, I moved back to Alexandria for an internship that could turn into a job. It was honestly one of the best summers of my life. It was like moving somewhere completely new but all your friends are there. I went out almost everyday. I dated a lot and reconnected a bunch with old flames.* I met this younger guy and I was totally smitten. I got a job at a young and popular organization and began the exhausting time of trying to be young and popular. All of the people that I knew at the time were around 25 or 26, I was 28/29. My "boss" was a year behind me in school and would cry during one-on-ones with others and I would have to comfort him in my meetings. That lasted less than a year and God blessed me to slide out of that job and into my current job, which I have been doing for 2.5 years. This is the longest I've ever worked somewhere.
In August, I moved from my summer place to a place in Old Town that was amazing! I lived there for over 2 years (the longest I have ever lived somewhere) until ultimately purchasing my own place this January.
Younger guy and I had so much fun, but I forgot young people aren't about anything serious ever, ever, ever. And worse with these millennials. He disappeared, reappeared, got a job at my organization, screwed it up and disappeared again. Good.
I have been dating a man for 1.5 years (again the longest I have ever consistently dated someone). That will be a story entirely of it's own.
What I have found is in the last 3 years while I was waiting for all the things to come to fruition, I have settled more, understood more, grew up more and those actions saw a relationship that could lead to something more settled, bought a house so I could be more settled, held down a stable job so I could be more settled.
I'm not saying that I have lost my crazy streak, not at all. In fact in a way the settling will cause it to fire up stronger than ever, but I would love to know what "her" -( i.e. 2014 version of me) judgements of me would be today.
It was the plan to do these things, but I didn't realize how much your mentality needs to change to be able to move forward in stable life plans.
*FYI Boo was engaged at the time I think and/or out of the country. He is currently neither of those things. The One was married at the time and/or out of the country. He is currently neither of those things.
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