Happy 1st Year Anniversary to me and Charlotte, NC. So much of my opinions have changed are still being formed, I'm finally starting to fit in and I'm just as mean and cantankerous as always. I want to take you through what you've been missing in my life.
First...To my own personal Big (sex and the city reference), he and I had this twisted relationship for probably 2-3 years. The only person who could turn me on with verbal conversation, who loved to read what I wrote and comment, who would think about deep (or not so deep) stuff I said and in his rich baritone voice, tell me his thoughts. I always thought that was so doggone sexy. Sometimes we didn't even need bedtime rituals, our convos were our aphrodisiacs that led to orgasms of the mind without so much as a touch. He asked me for an update because he is so far away and I'm only so happy to oblige.
My love life:
My goals for my love life haven't changed. I always steady looking for The One, hoping to find someone who is wanting to be in the family state of mind. A lot of my prejudged thoughts of Charlotte men, rang true to loyal, marry early, simpler (well than DC), less choices here so if you find a good one you keep them. I am dating one, we are completely different but for some reason it works. Keep your fingers crossed on that one. The ex that I started this blog for is now married. People always ask me what I think about that, but though he didn't choose to tell me about the engagement or the marriage (and I only feel it would come up because we spoke right before the engagement), we had a truthful no holds barring conversation that made me realize how we are in life is completely right. I am happy for him and his missus. I recently went back to DC for a week and as soon as I arrived my personality completely changed. I met men that would be perfect for me but would be willing to trade them out the next day should they step out of a line or a newer model act better. I was willing to juggle text messages and dates, and be prepared for the secrets that would come with them doing the very same thing. DC is not a place to settle, there are too many opportunities, always something better.
My work life: Just like relationships, DC is full of opportunities, you can hop around go from job to job get better and better, do what you want, claim a piece of whatever pie you feel like eating that year. I wanted that life again, if you work hard you can have anything :) I know that I could do it now, but what about 5 years, what about my family plans. I know I could find a good man there, but to keep a good man, well that's another story. In Charlotte, I spent the summer working for a very popular #1 in several categories bank, where here in Charlotte we give so much money, we rule the area. Lots of options, good pay, lots of discounts and programs. I got in the system. I struggled with working corporate but I realized to ultimately get what I want, it would be great for me especially to grow and establish roots. There aren't as many opportunities here I could count them probably less than 20 companies, but I am willing to try.
My extroverted friend life: As an extroverted, hippie, country girl, I realize that a little too much snooty DC behavior is inside of me. I hear it, I am wildly uninterested in most things, I'd rather spend time at my house than get a beer with 20 White strangers in an almost empty bar. This is not approved behavior. I also realized that like most MBAs, I am horrible conceited know it all always ready to give my opinion or tell you where I have been and what I know about a topic. That's gotta stop. So DC I have about 15-20 closest friends and happily some of my friends have become friends with my friends. I also have a kid that I love dearly and can always just have some lowkey fun with her if I don't feel like being crazy. In NC, I have made 2 or 3 close friends plus my sister and the guy I'm dating. That is the smallest amount ever and I'm not sure if it will grow. Harder to make friends here people are not as open.
My sister life: My sister and I had the hardest time adjusting to one another. I thought she should be more motivated, more like me when I was her age, and she thought that I was pushing her, asking for too much, and wanted us to live separate yet together lives. We finally started getting it together when I had car trouble, was working and going to school and just needed her help. I just needed to say that I wasn't Superwoman and I couldn't do everything and couldn't expect her to do everything. We get along fine now.
My God life: I'm embarrassed to say of all aspects of my life. This has remained stagnant or in some cases gone backwards. In DC I got used to going to Bible Classes, and attending Church events, reading the Bible going to church every week. I am going to church and that is about it, I gotta get better.
And finally my confused life spiral: I have around 4 more months of school before I get my degree. (YAY!) My head is spinning with decision making and though my plan has always been return to DC, Im starting to see Charlotte as somewhere I can be for the future and just visit other places (in a plane with money...) When I went back to DC people were in the same places, complaining about the same things, doing stupid stuff, partying staying out, paying all their great paychecks on housing, moving back in with their parents, all of the stuff I got out of my system or never had. I may still want to be about that life now, but in 3-4 years. My heart really wants me to settle down, Ive been running for too long but to plan a future for the next 5 years makes my heartbeat really fast. I'm waiting to hear about job opportunities here, and I suppose I would move somewhere better. The idea of packing again is crazy to me too. So Charlotte, DC, Charlotte, DC, I still have time, I still have opportunities but I'm driving myself crazy trying to figure out what future me would want. My life is easy there and I could easy pick back up and get back in it, but here I am still adjusting. In the end, maybe I will adjust to life here. No matter how slow/bad drivers/nice people but never do service quite right people seem to be here.
First...To my own personal Big (sex and the city reference), he and I had this twisted relationship for probably 2-3 years. The only person who could turn me on with verbal conversation, who loved to read what I wrote and comment, who would think about deep (or not so deep) stuff I said and in his rich baritone voice, tell me his thoughts. I always thought that was so doggone sexy. Sometimes we didn't even need bedtime rituals, our convos were our aphrodisiacs that led to orgasms of the mind without so much as a touch. He asked me for an update because he is so far away and I'm only so happy to oblige.
My love life:
My goals for my love life haven't changed. I always steady looking for The One, hoping to find someone who is wanting to be in the family state of mind. A lot of my prejudged thoughts of Charlotte men, rang true to loyal, marry early, simpler (well than DC), less choices here so if you find a good one you keep them. I am dating one, we are completely different but for some reason it works. Keep your fingers crossed on that one. The ex that I started this blog for is now married. People always ask me what I think about that, but though he didn't choose to tell me about the engagement or the marriage (and I only feel it would come up because we spoke right before the engagement), we had a truthful no holds barring conversation that made me realize how we are in life is completely right. I am happy for him and his missus. I recently went back to DC for a week and as soon as I arrived my personality completely changed. I met men that would be perfect for me but would be willing to trade them out the next day should they step out of a line or a newer model act better. I was willing to juggle text messages and dates, and be prepared for the secrets that would come with them doing the very same thing. DC is not a place to settle, there are too many opportunities, always something better.
My work life: Just like relationships, DC is full of opportunities, you can hop around go from job to job get better and better, do what you want, claim a piece of whatever pie you feel like eating that year. I wanted that life again, if you work hard you can have anything :) I know that I could do it now, but what about 5 years, what about my family plans. I know I could find a good man there, but to keep a good man, well that's another story. In Charlotte, I spent the summer working for a very popular #1 in several categories bank, where here in Charlotte we give so much money, we rule the area. Lots of options, good pay, lots of discounts and programs. I got in the system. I struggled with working corporate but I realized to ultimately get what I want, it would be great for me especially to grow and establish roots. There aren't as many opportunities here I could count them probably less than 20 companies, but I am willing to try.
My extroverted friend life: As an extroverted, hippie, country girl, I realize that a little too much snooty DC behavior is inside of me. I hear it, I am wildly uninterested in most things, I'd rather spend time at my house than get a beer with 20 White strangers in an almost empty bar. This is not approved behavior. I also realized that like most MBAs, I am horrible conceited know it all always ready to give my opinion or tell you where I have been and what I know about a topic. That's gotta stop. So DC I have about 15-20 closest friends and happily some of my friends have become friends with my friends. I also have a kid that I love dearly and can always just have some lowkey fun with her if I don't feel like being crazy. In NC, I have made 2 or 3 close friends plus my sister and the guy I'm dating. That is the smallest amount ever and I'm not sure if it will grow. Harder to make friends here people are not as open.
My sister life: My sister and I had the hardest time adjusting to one another. I thought she should be more motivated, more like me when I was her age, and she thought that I was pushing her, asking for too much, and wanted us to live separate yet together lives. We finally started getting it together when I had car trouble, was working and going to school and just needed her help. I just needed to say that I wasn't Superwoman and I couldn't do everything and couldn't expect her to do everything. We get along fine now.
My God life: I'm embarrassed to say of all aspects of my life. This has remained stagnant or in some cases gone backwards. In DC I got used to going to Bible Classes, and attending Church events, reading the Bible going to church every week. I am going to church and that is about it, I gotta get better.
And finally my confused life spiral: I have around 4 more months of school before I get my degree. (YAY!) My head is spinning with decision making and though my plan has always been return to DC, Im starting to see Charlotte as somewhere I can be for the future and just visit other places (in a plane with money...) When I went back to DC people were in the same places, complaining about the same things, doing stupid stuff, partying staying out, paying all their great paychecks on housing, moving back in with their parents, all of the stuff I got out of my system or never had. I may still want to be about that life now, but in 3-4 years. My heart really wants me to settle down, Ive been running for too long but to plan a future for the next 5 years makes my heartbeat really fast. I'm waiting to hear about job opportunities here, and I suppose I would move somewhere better. The idea of packing again is crazy to me too. So Charlotte, DC, Charlotte, DC, I still have time, I still have opportunities but I'm driving myself crazy trying to figure out what future me would want. My life is easy there and I could easy pick back up and get back in it, but here I am still adjusting. In the end, maybe I will adjust to life here. No matter how slow/bad drivers/nice people but never do service quite right people seem to be here.
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