I disappeared...it has been awhile...but while this has been a long year in making, it is finally coming to a close. WOW. I can see my transition in writing. I did not make it to 365 posts, but i made it to 204! (well i still have some time if I care to write more.)
My last post was in November, and then I removed myself from writing. Instead of posting about things that I knew for certain, I found that in my new environment I noticed that nothing was certain at all. Things I took for granted that was a part of my life, removed, people that I'm used to being around gone, life full of early mornings, busy nights, traffic, and lots of pure driven ambition, gone. I had to be a chameleon again and figure out my surroundings.
I did very well this semester 4.0. Two more semesters to go. Plan in place to be enacted. Side plans if made plan doesn't work.
2012 was amazing filled with amazing opportunities and many blessings. In 2012, I wasn't job searching. I had a very good job. I made some very good friends. I got to travel to Bangladesh and Dominican Republic. I moved to some place I've always dreamed of living. I lived with someone that I always wanted to live with. (I'm just ticking things off my life list). I got into a master's program. I am succeeding a master's program. I am meeting new people. I am getting along. I will make it.
It's funny my whole life I have been surrounded by people that were quite a bit older than me. I like being the young one :) For the first time in my life, I realized uh, oh I'm moving into the older person slot, and as the people older than me enjoy family slots, no longer doing single girl stuff. I can dig it, and only pray I get the same opportunity. With a ring....(hey...while I'm asking I might as well ask.)
I can hear my biological clock ticking and it is saying baby, stability, security, home. So I know what I have in the plan 12 months from now. The quest for that.
This is my first time in three years that I will not be spending the holidays with a certain man. There is a feeling of loneliness that is simply a lack of connectivity of having my parents, family AND a loved one not there this year, but I realize I have my parents and family, what if I couldn't say that?
There always 12 months from now.
So there in 7 neat paragraphs, do you see my past, my present, and my future. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
My last post was in November, and then I removed myself from writing. Instead of posting about things that I knew for certain, I found that in my new environment I noticed that nothing was certain at all. Things I took for granted that was a part of my life, removed, people that I'm used to being around gone, life full of early mornings, busy nights, traffic, and lots of pure driven ambition, gone. I had to be a chameleon again and figure out my surroundings.
I did very well this semester 4.0. Two more semesters to go. Plan in place to be enacted. Side plans if made plan doesn't work.
2012 was amazing filled with amazing opportunities and many blessings. In 2012, I wasn't job searching. I had a very good job. I made some very good friends. I got to travel to Bangladesh and Dominican Republic. I moved to some place I've always dreamed of living. I lived with someone that I always wanted to live with. (I'm just ticking things off my life list). I got into a master's program. I am succeeding a master's program. I am meeting new people. I am getting along. I will make it.
It's funny my whole life I have been surrounded by people that were quite a bit older than me. I like being the young one :) For the first time in my life, I realized uh, oh I'm moving into the older person slot, and as the people older than me enjoy family slots, no longer doing single girl stuff. I can dig it, and only pray I get the same opportunity. With a ring....(hey...while I'm asking I might as well ask.)
I can hear my biological clock ticking and it is saying baby, stability, security, home. So I know what I have in the plan 12 months from now. The quest for that.
This is my first time in three years that I will not be spending the holidays with a certain man. There is a feeling of loneliness that is simply a lack of connectivity of having my parents, family AND a loved one not there this year, but I realize I have my parents and family, what if I couldn't say that?
There always 12 months from now.
So there in 7 neat paragraphs, do you see my past, my present, and my future. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
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